Thursday, January 5, 2012

If You Really Knew Me

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm the best editor in the world.

You'd know that when I tell a story, or talk in general, it is exaggerated beyond belief.

You'd know that my father terrifies me.

You'd know that I sometimes forget the character I've made people believe is actually me.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I think that old dead white guys like Homer and Victor Hugo are genius'.

You'd know that AP Literature classes entice me, but mock me.

You'd know that I love Theater and I'm not Gay.

You'd know that beyond facades of control and confidence, there sits a stranger inside his own body.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I take every damn word seriously.

You'd know that I'm scared of not graduating.

You'd know that I'm in a perfect unrequited relationship.

You'd know that I want to teach the world.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I may faith in God isn't perfect.

You'd know that besides being as stubborn as an ass, I'm as easy to convince as a kid.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I don't know what to do after high school ends and all the friends who say that they love me so much just disappear because our worlds are gonna take different roads and we will all be diverse people with diverse interests and diverse new friends.

If you really knew me, you might miss who you thought I was.

Monday, December 19, 2011


Introduction to Poetry
By Billy Collins

I read through the list of poems that Nelson put up. But this one stood out to me.
Maybe it is because I remember this from Sophomore year and it brought me good memories.

Or just because I want to teach English, and the idea of an "Introduction to Poetry" sounds cool to me.
But I think that the real reason that this poem pushes it's way to the top, of not only of the poetry 180 list of the Library of Congress,
Its that it makes me want to write a poem even better then that one.

"But all they want to do
is tie the poem to a chair with rope
and torture a confession out of it."

I remember watching that in 9th and 11th Grades.
I felt bad for the poem. 
I felt bad for the author.

Billy Collins shuts the mouths of teachers who believe that God had revealed to them what the meaning of every poem, narrative, or just anything in general.

I'm jealous because I want to do that. 
Blow the away the minds of those who have built indestructible walls who won't break down.

"I want them to water ski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore."

This poem is absolutely mind-blowing. 
Billy Collins created something that can blow a seventeen year old Seniors mind.
Now I want to create something that is gonna be a tornado in every single teacher's Kansas.

Billy Collins has become Superman.
I want to fly too. 

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Unleash the Fire

This is for the girl who makes herself throw up every night.

Because she thinks she is fat.

This is for the perfect friends who seem to rule the world.

They don't.

All people have problems. Even the perfect people. Unleash the Fire.

This is for the Grandma's who make calendars for the families who won't use them.

This is the gamer who plays Skyrim all day because he is scared to talk to girls.

This is for the guy who acts a smart aleck who hates being the third wheel on the date.

Always trying to avoid any physical contact with anyone. Unleash the Fire.

This is for the server at ihop who looks like the bad guy from Prince of Persia.

Smoking is gonna kill ya. Don't Unleash the Fire on that one.

This is for the mentally handicapped kid who can't process the word "retard" when his father screams at him

He may not understand the words, but he understands the emotion.

This is for the girl who plays the piano for the pit.

You are pretty talented. And pretty attractive too.

Unleash the Fire with those keys.

When it all comes down to the final moments in events.

Last five seconds on the clock of the Chicago Bulls Game,

That last monologue given by Horatio in a High School Play.

That last keystroke before someone gets addicted to filth.

Before the end of any purity or upholding a moral code.

There are those last moments.

You have two choices.

Hold back the dam.

Or burn the wall to the ground.

And let all that water rush out.

Choice is yours.

This is for all of you who can choose.

To hold back.

Or Unleash the Fire.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Reading Charlie St. Cloud

I really like to read.
But I keep forgetting that I do like to read.
And when I do read, I'm not in Utah anymore.

I'm in Marblehead, Massachusetts watching Charlie St. Cloud and Tess dancing in the cemetery.
Or crying with Robinson Crusoe as he begs God forgiveness.

When will we own ourselves completely?
Be true to what we always thought we were.
But reading changes that.
You don't just see yourself as one person.

You see what else you are.
Or at least what you could be.

I close the book that took me two days to read.
And tonight is not the last time I'll see the light.

Monday, November 28, 2011

One Step Closer

Charlie has lived in his perfect society. High School has treated him well. He has the friends he has always wanted, the girlfriend of his dreams, and he going to college on a football scholarship. Nothing can ruin his bright future. But an accident destroys everything he has.

Now Charlie is paralyzed from the waist down. It all seems over now. At least until Charlie meets Greg. Greg is his new physical therapist who is helping in whatever way he can. Greg was also once paralyzed. He now is trying to help Charlie learn to walk again. Greg decides the best way for Charlie to overcome his dilemma is to get him on to college.

Now at the University of Utah, Charlie must rely on his head to get him through his trials in life instead of his body. He now tries to learn how to become an author. But with uncaring professors and plenty of competition, Charlie seems all alone. He is backed up by his best friends. And the girl of his dreams still loves him.

Charlie just can't seem to progress in his movement of his legs. And school is getting so hard that he can't take it. His friends rally around him and even Greg stays by his side. But Charlie is ready to give it all up. Seeing no reason to live, Charlie attempts suicide. But at the last minute, he remembers the words of an old playwright he has once studied. "How far that little candle throws his beams! So shines a good deed in a weary world."
All the good that has been done to Charlie is about to be thrown away.

Charlie recommits to his goal and continues working on his school work and physical therapy. Now is the ultimate test to take. After four years of school and painful therapy, he must now try to walk to receive his diploma. But after much work, Charlie walks again. He graduates as a writer and marries the girl of his dreams.

Threshold Guardian-School work
Herald-University Professors
Shape shifter- Pain and Stress

Monday, November 21, 2011

Film Analysis

Disney's Hercules

Ordinary World: Hercules, who was turned mortal after being born a God, is living under mortal parents and trying to get through life.

Call: His adoptive parents reveal to Hercules that he is not their child. Hercules strives to find out who he is.

Refusal of the Call: Hercules is discouraged that he can't find an answer to who he is.

Meeting with the Mentor: He meets Phil who trains him to become a hero.

Crossing the Threshold: Hercules goes to Thebes, a new city and world to him.

Tests, Allies, Enemies: He meets Megara, faces Hydra and battles several other monsters making him an idol in the city's eyes.

Approach: Hercules begins to get cocky and discouraged when Phil tells him that Meg is working for Hades, who turned him mortal in the first place.

Ordeal: Hercules is stripped of his super strength by Hades and now must try to save the city by himself. He battles the Titans and save Olympus from destruction. Megara sacrifices herself to save Hercules.

Reward: Zeus tells Hercules how proud he is of what he has done in his life.

The Road Back: Hercules must travel to the Underworld to save Megara's soul from Hades.

Resurrection: Hercules is almost swallowed up by death, but saves Megara and regains his Godhood.

Return with Elixer: Hercules chooses to give up his Godhood to be with the one he loves. Megara.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Ordinary World

Rise of Nations

My name is Phil Goldman. I've been a student at the University of Notre Dame and I have been training to become a Priest. My life has been set out for me my whole life. I get my degree and teach religion. All seemed great, then I met Ruth. She is perfect for me! She is religious, funny, and lets not forget beautiful. But there is just one problem. She is Mormon. I don't know what to do? This girl who I'm starting to love or the future I always thought I would have.

Will Phil convert to become Mormon?
What will his family think?
Does he really love Ruth?